Love

This is crazy! I'm talking about this love thing. Im sitting in front of the computer listening to love songs thinking about my love. Wow! I've never been in love and it feels so good. This feeling that I have I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

I've spent many years thinking I knew what love was.  Later when I realized that I knew nothing about love, I set out on a quest to search for love. And what do you know love found me.

Its just that feeling of security that I sought for so long. That feeling of knowing I don't need to search for anything else outside of what she provides. That feeling and knowing that I will never leave her side. Knowing that I will protect her from harm with a vehement defense and care for her as gently as I would my new born child. I'm in love and I love it.

Soon she will become my wife. I need her to function. I need her attention, her touch, her love. How did I ever lose so much control over myself. I have no clue. But I do know that I love every moment and I can't wait to see another day to do it all over again.

Domestic Terrorism

Well are you? Are you one of those people that threatens your fellow Americans with visual terrorism? I was visually assaulted by a group of domestic terrorist in the University of Minnesota's Aquatics locker room.

I went to pick up the bot from his swimming lessons and there they were in all of their sickening glory. Naked men walking about freely with seemingly no destination. And with children around. Why do you have your nuts hanging around little kids? Anywhere else there would an outrage and a police investigation. I was so irritated walking through the locker room. Oh and they weren't just walking nude they were grabbing, flapping, and swaying. WTF! Don't you see these little kids here?

Oh and from what I hear the women locker room was just as bad. Listen people! Nobody want to see your nuts, third leg, boobs, crotch, and ass. Keep your towel near while you change in front of your locker. Wrap the towel around you while you go to shower and put it back on when you are done.

Of course I had to contact the university about this atrocity. And of course they tried to say they feel their system is just fine. NOT!!! To get to the pool is a maze. The family locker room which is all but unheard of is located nowhere near the lesson pools. The staff knows nothing about the "learn to swim" program. And there are no signs, no lifeguards posted at the door as described, and nobody at the door to let us in. Until we beat on  it for a few until they did. Oh and don't let me forget the code in the second door that's not reliable.

These people walking about naked in front of the kids and just as bad as all the domestic terrorist.  These people leave you with a lasting image of their nuts! At least the other terrorist try to end your life. At least you won't have it burn in your mind for the rest of your life. Bastards!!! I went my whole life avoiding seeing other men naked and these disgusting pieces of crap ruined it on a matter of minutes. Nasty mofo's!!!

Some Hidden Code or Something...

Its funny how men will quickly distance themselves from a woman with just the thought of her not being all that he imagined her to be. Its weird to me how a woman can be pushed away so easily and most feelings thrown out once that guy believes she cheated or even capable of cheating. I know that I've been guilty of doing such things. I always figured it was just me. But talking with more and more guys the older I become, men that have more experience in relationships. They confirm that I am not alone in my thinking and my actions.

I once left a girl on Valentine's day because she did something totally out of the ordinary (sleeping away from home and not being able to reach her). I left one girl in the middle of the night while she was sleep because I felt like she was bs'ing me. I completely cut off communication with a cool girl because of how wild I found out she was in her past and figured she could still have some of that in her. I mean some people may say its wrong and I'm too judgemental, but!!! But people have to also remember that your past will catch up with you some day. If you were loose, a cheater, a home wrecker, or just a plain liar then how can you be upset when that great guy comes along with values, honest, believes in family and he doesn't want to ignore your track record and trust that you won't repeat it? Hell even jobs, companies extending credit, and landlords check your history. But in a relatonship your history should not be taken into account? Ok!

What people do says a lot about who they are. Of course we all make mistakes. Of course most of us wish we could take things back. And of course we shouldn't pay for past mistakes forever. But we do. Sometimes shit from our past jumps up and bite us in the ass. I have made mistakes. Some I wish that I could take back. But it is what it is. It may show up at some point and it may not. But if it does then I will deal with it at that moment and not blame the other person for questioning my sketchy past. That is if I had something to be really ashamed of. And I don't. I don't understand why I or men in general react the way that i/we do. Maybe its partially our upbringing... who knows. All I know is that a lot of these wild people out here men and women will have a lot of skeletons squeezed into their closets. And they will have a hell of a time keeping it secret forever.

2010 ~ Let's GO!!!

Wow! 2009 is gone already. I sat back and thought about the wild year I had. Then I decided to think about the past 10 years. So much has happened that I can't remember them all. Well here is what I can remember off top in no particular order.

• Got Married
• Got Divorced
• I became the father of twins. (boy and girl)
• I became a father of another boy
• I was laid off (2) jobs and still advanced in my career
• I started my own business Check It Out 
• I bought a house
• Then gave up the house (in the divorce. good riddance)
• Traveled a billion miles picking up and dropping off my kids (they live in a different state)
• Still traveling a billion miles to be with them
  
• Was falsely arrested
• Was compensated nicely for the arrest
• Walked 11 miles overnight from downtown Chicago to Oak Park. (don't ask)
• Blew a ton of money going out looking for my future wife
• Gave up on that dream and she found me

What a decade! Was it worth the hassle? I would say yes. Because I learned a ton about people and even more about myself. I have a lot of work to do in order to make things right with my past. But I can proudly say I won't be doing it alone. Hello 2010. I greet you with open arms!